Brian

long week

2003-03-12T17:44:21Z

hey, i havent updated this in so long i guess i just never got around to it. Anyways its been a really long week and its only wednesday, well except for yesterday that went by fast but only after school. so what has happened in my life, well not too much we just registered for classes and im happy to say im in3 honors courses which is pretty good for me. im starting to worry about college. im so worried im not doing enough extra curricular things or i dont have good enough grades, and what if my parents dont have a lot of money and all of that stuff.plus i have no clue how to find a school out of the thousands. well in other news i recently went to a juliana theory concert, it was soooooooooooooooo cool, they put on a really good show despite all of the dumb looking people who were there. well i best be going, toodles

i like christmas

2002-12-28T05:07:46Z

i like christmas. it is fun. i got a lot of cool stuff and i think that i gave some pretty cool stuff too. It was really fun. anyways vacation is going great. Oh revolver is the second best beatles album. those guys are simply incredible they were so ahead of their time. oh well they are gone. Anyways its late so im gonna go, bye

...

2002-12-10T01:41:02Z

Today was the saddest day for me. My dog stubby one of my best friends in the whole world died today. He got hit by a car in front of my house. I just can believe that he is gone. I loved him with all of my heart. He was like family like a brother. It was just weird like my mom and little brother were there and there were asking me what to do, because i wasnt crying so they thought i had control of myself. I didnt. I was crying on the inside, and then looking at my best friend lying there i couldnt hold back the tears and i just exploded. I love you stubby and i know you know im thinking that. Ill miss you forever.

cheesy week

2002-11-26T02:18:15Z

why are we even having this week its 2 and a half days why bother. Oh well. Anyways i had a very fun weekend. I saw poltergeist and part 2 both very good movies, the jesus guy was scary. Just hung around with emilia the weekend which is my favorite thing. Christmas is alsmost here and for once im excited about it and im not a grinch, thanks em. I cant wait i finally get to be a part of a christmas. Also another reason to be happy is that we might get snow wednesday and not have school and that will be soooooo good. Well i best be going, bye. Oh yeah my mood is JUBILANT.

i only want to see you laughing, in the purple rain

2002-11-20T19:51:50Z

time to update. First start with friday. friday was so awesome i went to em's house and hung out for a while, then molly and her mother picked us up and we went to friendlys where mary kate was waiting. My dinner was so good and i had my first sundae ever. It was really really good. then we went to see harry potter, it was so unbelieveably awesome it was just as good as the first one. YOJ! then we went home and just chilled out until we fell asleep. Then i went home got ready for the formal and went back to ems where she was waiting. I have never seen anything or anyone that beautiful before. So then after the "photo session" we went. It was so much fun, there was so much food and drinks and it was all good. We danced, grinded and everything. It was so fun. Oh yeah the grinding part isnt true. anyways, then sunday we jus hung around the house which was funchie. Next weekend we are going to another dance where i can werar a suit and its going to be so cool. anyways, im going now, toodles

boring half day

2002-11-14T17:33:11Z

today was a pointless day, we did nothing in calss and got no homework, so w2hat was the point of going...i dont know either. anyways i just got home and now im relaxing until 5 45 when i have to go back to school to help with conferences, i have to be an usher. No not usher the singer. Anyways im thirsty so im going to get a drink, this was the dumbest entry i have ever written...sorry

halloween, time to bury some apples

2002-10-31T19:30:29Z

today i woke up feeling good. I put on my harry potter costume, i have to admit it wasnt much but i thought it was good. So i get to school and people instantly recognize me as him. So i had to hand out candy for SADD to people. I was doing that and then nick comes up and he was like, "who the hell are you supposed to be" and i said harry potter. Then he was like that is the worst costume ever you dont look anything like harry potter. That was even worse than when you dressed up as the rivers. And i was getting really annoyed. That was mean i didnt make fun of his costume when he was sean connery. So i just forget about it but then i see him in the hall way and he screams out you are the worst harry potter. Even if what he was doing was a joke it still was really uncool. Anyways, the rest of the day besides that was pretty good. In gym we were playing wiffle ball and i hit it really hard i was so proud :). I cant wait until tommorow i just want this week to be over. Right now im listening to prince and i have to admit that he has a hell of a lot of talent, regardless of what anyone says. well im going to go now, toodles.

Screw Hester Prynne

2002-10-27T18:32:15Z

Right now im thinking about how much i hate the scarlet letter. Its such an annoying book and its really hard to read. I have to do a project due tuesday about the scarlet letter, i have to make a board game with questions and rules and all this other crap. Anyways, I just got out of the shower, good god i love to be clean. Last night I watched the Wizard of Oz while on the computer. Its a really good movie. I dont want to do homework its a beautiful day outside. Oh well ill have help from emily who has read this garbage before. anyways i am going to go. Toodles

I dislike mondays with all of my heart

2002-10-21T18:42:26Z

Today i woke up unwillingly and went to school. Then i had a spanish quiz, im pretty sure i did terrible on it. I had a pretty good day though. Dan invited me tohis house friday for a sleepover, im gonna go. They are going toplay paintball but im not, im going to videotape it at dans request. then im gonna go home, shower and go to em diddy's. Right now im really bored. i thought that this would make it better but sadly it didnt. Sorry for this shitty entry.

almost friday

2002-10-17T21:46:45Z

hey i havent updated this in a while so i figure its about time i do so. Friday i went to ems house and then we saw tuck everlasting, that movie SUCKED, i scared angela a couple times, she tripped so did mary kate. OMG there were these really obnoxious girls who were being loud on purpose, ooo how i hated them, they will grow up to be whores. ok that was a little mean but they yelled like in our ears. Then when we moved this fat one came and sat behind us she thought she was so cool but she wasnt. Anyways later that night natalie and travis came home that was cool. Then saturday we went to lunch and then to dashboard confessional. I enjoyed it a lot, even though its a lot different and there were 12 year olds. I also liked hot rod circuit a lot. Speaking of hot rod circuit me and emily went to get t-shirts and hot rod circuit was just standing there! so me and emily got an autograph from the lead singer andy, he was nice about it. I tried to buy a hot rod circuit t-shirt i thought it was just black with grey writing i couldnt really see it but it turns out that when i got it it was silver writing with sparkles and it had this like female looking cat on it i was so pissed i bought a girls t-shirt!!!!! oh well. Sunday me emily nick ashley and sean went to lake compounce it was fun, we met angela molly and mary kate there. The rotor blew i dont know why but for some reason i didnt stick to the god damned wall. Plus the jerk who ran it did it for literally 20 seconds. Boulderdash was awesome the two times we did it. The haunted grave yard was even better than last years. I got so scared. Emily ran right into micheal myers. Monday we picked apples lol and then i had to go home at like 4:30 that sucked. Now up to today we got to get out of school early because a water mane broke. I WAS SO HAPPY. YOJ!!! anyways im done for right now bye journal, bye kids.

almost friday

2002-10-17T21:46:30Z

pretty good day

2002-10-10T02:23:10Z

today was a pretty good day. In school we have a spirit week and each of the days is a different dressup day and today was celebrity day. No one knew who i was. I was rivers from weezer, i wore a sweater witha collar under it and some dark jeans and my glasses and i flipped the front of my hair up, now people have said that i looked like him before so i thought it was a god idea to do it, the second i get into school people are like who the hell are you supposed to be, and i was like damn these people suck. I should have been harry potter. oh well. tommorow im not going to dress up i did last year but i dont have anything to wear, its new york nightlife and last year i was a pimp i wore a purple silk suit with a huge hat with a feather, that was also purple and black pointy shoes, i looked badass. but this year i have nothing to wear and im not going to wear the pimp suit again. i stayed after school and got extra help in math. At first i thought that my math teacher was strict but shes actualy the nicest teacher i have shes really really nice to me and gives me the extra help that i need after being absent a long time. I went to a college fair yesterday. It was pretty hectic in there. I dont have any clue exactly where i am going to go but i looked at a few broschures and there is this one school that i REALLY REALLy like the looks of, its called Franklin Pierce of New Hampshire, it looks like a really good school and its really small and its secluded in the mountains away from all the craziness of a city (which i like). I want to know more about this particular school. my virus is almost gone and i am glad. Im going to lake compounce for the "fright fest" it sounds lame but its really cool, all the rides are open and there is this ENORMOUS haunted maze and things jump out holy crap it is scary. Lake compounce also has my favorite ride in the world. Its called the rotor, you stand there and it spins you around and you stick to the walls i love it! i was just thinking, i got off the phone with em only a couple of minutes ago and already im starved of hearing her voice i love that girl with all of my heart and she means everything to me. Thanks em. well im going to go to sleep now, goodnight

sick all week

2002-10-04T16:58:16Z

hey all, i havent updated in a long time. Heres the story. All week long i have been sick. It sucked. I had strep throat i had it once before and it was just like this i was dizzy and i couldnt stand up straight and i was throwing up and i couldnt swallow anything but i was starving and i had migraines and it was just all in all really shitty. I was sick on tuesday but i still went to volunteer because i'm a commited volunteer, plus i got to see emily.

"and we could build this thing together stand in stone forever"

Speaking of emily its now 8 months that we have been going out and that is sooooo cool. im soo happy! i love her so much and nothing is going to stop us. oh my lord, my algerbra teacher actually CALLED me today to give me my work she is a work nazi, let me give you some background. She gives us homework everyday, now its not a lot hardly any but if you dont do every single bit and have an answer that makes sense then you get a zero for the homework grade. I have two zero'a because like my graph was sloppy and i didnt know how to do a problem. So she calls me and gives me a bunch of homework that im NOT gonna do, she said if i feel well enough well i can tell you all now even though i feel fine im going to tell her i didnt feel good. Sunday im going to take emily to see red dragon, we both want to see it. anyways im gonna go now see ya later

pretty good day

2002-09-25T00:40:35Z

i went to school today but i really didnt want to wake up. I didnt have a lot of make up homework so that was good. I think i did well on a spanish quiz. I went to dans house after school. We did our homework, then played some videogames. Dan is a cool kid. I came home, called em, then ate. I then proceeded to finish my essay thats due thursday so i wouldnt have to do it tommorow because i volunteer on wednesdays. I think its a good essay, it parallels the crucible with the communist red scare and explains how mass hysteria made it possible for those events to take place. How professional does that sound??? i heard a weird story and it was pretty cool. Im so happy. I just love living and i love emily, and i dont care about anything else. Also we actually started to draw in drafting, for the first couple of weeks all we did was letter and it was really boring but oh well. Drafting is fun. I saw the el scorcho music video yesterday it was pretty cool, rivers looks like a psycho. Well i have to go. Toodles

happy

2002-09-19T00:36:44Z

hey journal. Its wednesday and usually i volunteer at a hospital on wednesdays but i couldnt today so i am goign tommorow with em. I really like helping people, i have only went once but everyone was so grateful just for visiting them and bringing them a muffin, i was so happy. Thinking about the people that appreciate it makes me happy. I am also happy the it is almost friday, i cant wait for the weekend, i dont like school. I am also happy that i have barely got any homework during this week. i am also happy that my birthday is coming and everyhting like that, im also happy that i got a car. A jeep cherokee, its pretty cool, its old but i dont care its a car. Im also happy that i have the most incredible person to share my life with. Thank you emily. Im also happy that angela is letting me borrow the beatles movie help i have wanted to see it for a while. I am just a happy person and im so thankful for that. Well im gonna go now see you tommorow

good weekend.

2002-09-16T23:05:55Z

i had a very good weekend this weekend. On friday i went to Emily's house which is very good. We hung around and can you believe that we went to bed at 10:30 thats earlier than when we go to sleep during the week, i have no idea why either of us were that tired but we were. Then the next day we went to natalies school to stay there for the night. It was fun, we saw ross again and then his friend andy. We watched this movie called the changeling i didnt think it was that scary but natalie sure did she was going crazy, (emily slept through it). We also went into the tree, holy crap it was like the tree in the lion king. then sunday we came back to emily's house, it felt good to be clean and not hot again. Then i called matt from there and it turned out that it was matts birthday, so i went to his house for a suprise sleep over, it felt good because matt looked so happy thatt people were there. we stayed up all night but that was only for fear of getting food put on them in their sleep, matt was the first to fall asleep so he got it first and i videotaped. but then i fell asleep and he got me and nick and videotaped it. i guess for all the times ive done it to him i deserved it but it isnt cool im not doing that again, it was really annoying actually. i was supposed to play paintball but i felt so sick in the morning that i had to go home. i took a much needed shower and fell asleep from 9:00 to 4:30 and i am still tired. and that is about it, i had a great weekend, they are all great, the weekends are the best times for me. well i have to go but i will write more someday

nothing much going on right now

2002-09-04T23:02:03Z

i havent updated this in a while. not much has been going on. i love drafting, its my best class. mr kellogg says that my lines are good so im satisfied with my work. its really hard to draw lines because there is a certain technique to use. lately everyone has been getting a journal of some sort, i guess its just the thing to do now. i got some pretty nifty shoes. they have checkers on them Rip checkers. the vma's sucked. Timberlake is even worse without the other idiots. Nelly wears a band-aid on his face. there are cheesey chickens in the dog house. oh i played this new video game called supermonkey ball, i dont play videogames a lot but this game was sooooooo good it made me want to play them. its so addictive. the weekends are way to short and i miss summer already. I like pink floyd. i was watching the wall and i really started to realize what its all about. roger waters is quite the poet. i joined enviromental club i think its going to be fun the art teacher likes me so thats a plus. my math teacher is sooooo hard, she gives a lot of work. i dont like chemistry. it is too complicated for me and its only the 2nd week. well i have to go now bye

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! (school)

2002-08-28T01:51:01Z

hey i havent updated this in about forever. lets see whats going on. school started today, i am soooooo bummed about that. i had the best summer ever and i didnt want it to be over. i have the hardest teachers EVER!!!!! i only like one class and that is drafting. thats what i really want to do with my life is to be an architect. its just something that i would really love to do. anyways, i had a party which i think was a pretty good success, i hope everbody else had a good time. i definitely did and so did em. once again i cant wait for the weekends, and it will be like that for 180 days. but i know that this year no matter how hard it will be, will be a good year, i have no problems, and ive realized that the less friends i have means that i care about the ones i have a whole lot more and i like it that way. matt and laura are still going out and im happy for them. nick and ashley are still going out and im happy for them. and im happy, and so is emily. everything is good. my birthday is coming in exactly a month. all i want is for emily to be with me on my birthday i dont want anything material. materials really dont mean anything anymore i could care less about how good my guitar is now or how good my cd player is or anything like that. it just doesnt matter. anyways back to drafting, i am the oldest kid in there the rest of the 8 kids are freshmen which means that i get to control what music gets played during class ROCK ON! they look like a bunch of eminem heads and ja-ruleans, hopefully i can turn them from the dark side. today i got a ride home from dan, he is a much better driver than matt i must say, he goes within the speed limit and uses his blinkers. i feel much safer in there than in matts care, with good reason seeing as he crashed 2 seconds away from my house. right now im watching joe dirt which is such a funny movie, i reccomend it to everyone, no matter how much you will say you hate it deep down inside everyone loves that movie. well im going to go now. toodles

::your arms in mine, any time, wouldnt trade anything, youre still my everything::

cheese

2002-08-12T02:39:52Z

cheezy chickens in the doghouse, thats basically all i have to say right now, also, im losing faith in dashboard confessional, the dirty bastards, it went from one guy with an acoustic guitar to a whole band with electric guitars and a keyboard, its sad really, looks like the twelve year olds got their hottie, too bad really. move over justin chris is coming into town, next thing you know hes going to have corn rows and do nelly compilations, and instead of drive thru records he will be with bad boy records. but he aint goin nowhere cuz hes a bad bo fo life, big pimpin. anyways i guess i did have more to say than cheezy chickens in the doghouse. also natalie and travis are having rocktacular time in sunny california. they went to a weezer concert and i am very jealous. i also heard that natalie got me something, she REALLY shouldnt have wasted her money on me. anyways, another reason i am jealous is because they are going to the price is right, ok that is so not fair i used to fake sick just to watch that show. i hope natalie or travis gets to go down, that would be insanely cool, i would cry. i bet if bobby boy put his arm around nat trav would go beat the crap out of him. haha thats just wishful thinking, it would be very funny though. anyways im getting of subject so i better go, buh bye

at em diddy's

2002-08-02T01:32:14Z

right now im in emily's house, how cool is that!!! shes in the shower so im writing umm well lets see we played golf im still winning but only by a couple of strokes, we actually played 2 games the second was free. she came back from vacation and i was here and she and i were both excited. well i gotta go bye.

hey

2002-07-30T02:48:54Z

i havent written in this for a very long time so i guess i should now. well emily is on vacation, and i REALLY REALLY miss her, i cant even explain how much i miss her. i really didnt want her to go but i did want her to go because its her dream vacation. right now nick is playing video games and im just thinking about emily and waiting for the second she gets home. something pretty cool happened to me, i used to LOVE the beatles i mean LOVE them but then i just started falling out of the whole classic rock thing but when i was exposed to the beatles i realized how much i missed them. i went to emily's house and her friends who love them were there and they were playing them and i was like hey i should go home and listen to the beatles. so i did. if i didnt mention this before the weezer concert was simply amazing except for the minutes of feedback at the end, i think everyone there got a migraine, combined with that and the pot, and stupid chain smokers that like to hit on little boys when their boyfriends were next to them. oh well i gotta go i love you emily and i miss you bye

hey

2002-07-19T04:21:30Z

hey i havent written in this in a while so its time. in two days its the weezer concert and im so psyched for it, its oging to be so awesome. ive been hanging a lot with emily this summer and i must say that this has been the best summer of my life and i will never forget it. there are so manny incredible memories like cape cod, the golf tournament, being with emily a lot, and everything that we did in cape cod and when i was with emily. and a million other things. right now i would have to say that my life is better than its ever been, thank you emily. on a funny note, for a couple of days this kid who istn my friend and was only sort of my friend before is iming basically everyone i know and saying the most retarded things to them in a miserable attempt to get everyone to dislike me (sorry nicky boy it isnt working), so far everyone that has had the bad luck to experience this has thought it was the stupidest thing that has ever happened to them. now normally i would worry but since he isnt my friend i dont have to worry because its not harming me in any way, only his reputation, now he will be known as the kid who instant messenges people at 2 oclock in the morning saying random and stupid stuff for fun. i hasnt affected me in the least bit. i really dont see why hes doing it but in all onesty i dont care, i could care less about what people think of me, because im happy and thats all that matters, that and emilys happy that matters to me. and its good that emily isnt worrying about this at all, i was afraid she was going to but shes really not. and like every toddler they eventually tire themselves out and so will this big baby. anyways, thats whats going on in my life right now, and im actually winning the golf tournament wich is amazing seeing as the first game iplayed with emily anthony and trav i must have set a record for worst score ever. another thing thats happening, ive vowed not to sweear, its just lame and i hope i will last. i think i will. oh yeah, if i didnt mention this already which i think i did, matt got a girlfriend (yay!) im so excited for him and ihope that that lasts. who knows maybe it will. stranger things have happened...anyways speaking of golf tommorow me and emily are going to play at a new course and its going to be soooooo cool. i hope that she catches up but im not going to let her win though. the ideal end to the summer would be that we tied in the tournament but if i have to win than so be it. one of my biggest flaws is that i am such a sore loser and when im losing you know it because i whine about it. ohhh i forgot to mention im going to have a pool party and its going to be sooooooo rad, because my pool i think is sooooo cool at night because it has these colr changing lights in it. theres gonna be a lot of people coming i hope they have fun. on another note im going to maine in august to visit my best guy friend in the whole world for about a week, (he moved to maine in the 5th grade but ive kept in touch and when he visits his father in fairfield i stay at hishouse the whole time hes there until he leaves, and ive been to maine a couple of times already) its going to be so fun. anyways i m gonna go now, ill update sometime in the future
::im not me without you::

havent written in a while (my longest entry yet...)

2002-07-15T06:22:55Z

i havent written this in forever and im up so its time i do. Well i must say i am having the best summer i have ever had. first cape cod, then no school, then friends, and i have been with emily for a lot of the days, and that is the best part. i would be with her every day if i could. Anyways, pretty soon is the weezer concert, i am psyched, i am excited about weezer a lot but more for dashboard confessional, hopefully there wont be any twelve year old little bastards running around with their pink flowered chris carraba t-shirts. me and emily have witnessed before our eyes the demise of a once beautiful thing. it was the stupid music video that started it all then came unplugged. what i dont understand is how you can have an unplugged version of acoustic music, its ALREADY unplugged. its just disgusting. now theres a big article in rolling stone about him. in it it says that he has a beer every two weeks, so you know those trendy little bastards at rolling stone put him in a bar setting holding a bottle of budweiser. its just terrible. speaking of terrible did i mention the emo article in teen people. i cant talk about it, it hurts too much. on a good note matt got a girlfriend, then he admitted to me that i was right, when you have a girlfriend you alwyas want to be with him, he said it himself folks. im happy for him, im really happy for him, he deserved it. anyways, matt is sleeping on my couch right now as we speak, he fell asleep so early, and i cant sleep, its the weirdest thing when im not with emily im restless, and its because im thinking about her so much. i feel really bad because i didnt call her tonight, even though i just left her house i still call her to say goodnight and i didnt today. its ok though i know she will forgive me. ok so when i get home immideitely this girl im's me jackie. every time she has a problem she tells me to listen to it so i cant say no so i do. but its always about the most trivial stuff. then she told matt her number and tried to give it to me. i wouldnt call her, i dont know it would just be weird. and i felt bad because emily was right there when matt did it so i think she was like what the heck, but her and i both know that i only love her. i would be like what the heck as well if one of her friends gave her some guys number and said that he wanted to talk to her so i see where she is coming from but i promise that i only love her and will never be with anyone else but her. on a good note im winning the mini golf tournament but i dont htink my luck is going to last emily was winning by ten and i caught up so she could definitely catch up. lately me and em have been playing monopoly, we have some intense games, i like to think of it as ghetto-nopoly, because emily likes the light blkue ones and i like the dark purple ones, they are the treasures of the board, people dont see their usefulness. wow, i have been rambling on for a long while, i think its time to wake up matthew , goodnight everyone, emily if your reading this, double goodnight i love you, bye

oh yeah

2002-07-09T05:35:06Z

also, i gave belle and sebastian a chance, and i realized i like it a lot, thanks natalie, dont worry i wont pull an emily tastic

its been awhile

2002-07-09T05:33:20Z

hi, i havent written in this forever, and i just got back so i figured this is a good time to update. a lot happened in cape cod. Me and emily had the best time, and i never got sick of her like i get sick of people when im with them for too long, its just not possible with her. we had the best food ever, onion wings are da bomb, i turned emilys dad to the dark side and got him to call someone white trash, we talked about hicks the whole trip, we also talked about emily tastic a lot more, we recreated the video it was so good, emily bought me a gumby, we went to province town and i saw a guy put his hand on another guys butt, me and em started a gang called the flying fouxes, she is called cheezy chicken and i am mr doghouse, the fox made noise during the ngiht that souded like a baby, there was a 3 legged skunk, and one of the major things was we met this kid kevin, i dont wanna type all of it so just read how we met him in ems journal, me and emily stole taffy, we went into the ocean with really cold water and big waves, we also again talked about hicks and emily tastic, i met dana and shes cool,we also played a lot of mini golf, em is winning the tournament but there is still half of summer left, i could write a million other things but i wont, i had the best time of my life with emily, and i cant wait for next years trip, i love you emily